I’m a VIP

Money (Photo credit: 401(K) 2012)

© 2012 Elviera Schreüder (Wisdomlily)

I’m a VIP
With a camera
Yeah, they say that there’s nothing wrong with the love of money
They are stuck, standing
But not actively executing the will of the Father
This is not just a position
It is a walk – it is a journey

Who are these money throwers?
These people who gather money like they are picking grapes
Like it is the fruit a holy life produces
Wait while I have my glass of wine
Wait while I ponder
Wait for God to speak

Unrest

© 2012 Elviera Schreüder (Wisdomlily)

Why is there so much unrest in my heart
I cry out to You day and night
Hear me Lord
Direction is what I need
It is You alone that I seek
This life is worthless without Your presence

Why do I question my salvation?
Why do I constantly wonder if I am on track?
Anxiously I wrestle with all these thoughts in my head
Are they legit or do I have to force them out of my mind?

Lord hear my cry
With my mouth I confess and in my heart I believe
Jesus came, He died and rose again

My sins I confess
Yes,
This I do, for I know
You are faithful and just Lord
You will forgive my sins
You will cleanse me

Before You I will stand spotless

Lord reveal to me my enemy
And the thoughts that do not align with Your purity

Come and pursue my heart

© 2012 Elviera Schreüder (Wisdomlily)

Patiently I wait.
My heart is not my bait.
What you see is not all that there be.
Patiently I wait.
Come and pursue my heart.
Without destroying the mystery…
Without forcing things upon me…
Patiently…
In purity I wait.
Yes… I know things will come to try to derail me.
Onto Him I will cling.
For you I will wait under His wing…
There I am safe.

Molded

© 2012 Elviera Schreüder (Wisdomlily)

The future lies before me
I’ve seen the crossroad and
I’ve made a choice
Now I’m waiting
I am praying
I know what I want
I’ve seen a glimpse of Your plan
Guide my feet
Help me Lord

Inside I am bubbling with words and there are things that I have allowed to hold me back from speaking those words. I also have a burning passion to achieve certain things. Maybe you won’t see them as achievements but in my life I will view them as achievements.

In life we are chasing the wind as Ecclesiastes states: “I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and, behold, all is vanity and a striving after wind.” I clearly see this pursuit of nothingness where I am at this stage of my life. Sadly, I’ve come to realize that I’ve also chased (and am still chasing) after a lot of meaningless things. We label things as important when really it is not even worth looking at. We disregard some important things because it is hard to deal with or demands a lot of our time and effort. We “move on” and say that the “past is the past” and that we should “live for today” and “look at the future”.

Sun of Righteousness

© 2012 Elviera Schreüder (Wisdomlily)

I can’t see…
Your presence blinds this mortal body.
You are a loving warmth to us,
Your sons -
A burning fire,
consuming all Your enemies.
You are the Sun of Righteousness!

Like a sword Your light cuts through my eyes,
Illuminating the state of my heart.

In You I find no fault.
Mercy is Your trademark and it differentiates You from other so-called gods!

This book

This book (1)

I’m standing here with this book in my hand
It’s a diary
It is my diary

I’ve wanted to open it up.
I’ve wanted to read you some of the pages…
But I’m so afraid to let you in on these blurs,
These tear drops of mine

Yes I am hurting
All I can do with this hurt is to write it down
As I write, my tears flow like the ink from my pen

I’m standing here with this book in my hand
It is a diary
It is my heart.

Do you ever feel like you cannot open up and let healing flow into your heart? There was a time in my life I could not talk about what I was feeling on the inside. It felt like I was dying on the inside. I know that even as you read this blog that there are many people in pain wondering…
When it will heal?
When it will go away?
Who can I trust?